i should post stuff about gaza, stuff about west bank, i’m too tired. i’ll post stuff tmw. too much shit is going on, but also good resistance/solidarity but… i don’t know what to write, say, do. last i checked – this morning, the number of martyrs in غزة was over 90. we were either in the street or at the hospital because of rushdie. when there’s a hundred martyrs, among them children, babies, sometimes a whole family wiped out, sometimes several children from one family burned/crushed/blown up/.. it’s seems almost selfish to talk about one martyr. still. this evening, rushdie died.
after rollercoaster at fkn ramallah hospital, rushdi died, rushdi, nariman’s brother, the second martyr in less than a year in nabi saleh, rushdi, relative of pretty much everyone here. i could try to describe who broke down in which way, who needed medical aid when we heard the news, who needed to be carried away, who is still …. i can’t describe. i can’t describe the pain i see in people’s faces, their break downs, their attempts to stay strong, and break downs, it’s too much. i’m spent from knowing they’re again in this unbearable, incredible pain. i think i should look up what happened in gaza and here (reports kept coming in of serious injuries, arrests, etc. in west bank) but i’m worn out. i don’t know any more. it’s all too much, been too much a good while ago. there’s no break for the few familys in this community that i feel close to, unbearable things keep coming at them, people are still struggling hard to get back on their feet, their scars are still breaking my heart, when the next fucking up blow comes.
الله يرحمك يا رشدي و الله يعطي صبر على اهلك
i’m posting below what i wrote earlier about what happened saturday. one correction: we are not sure whether the wound on his forehead was from the butt of a rifle, from getting dragged after getting shot, or beaten or a stone or… there’s different versions. we’ll not know cause no one could film as they were shooting life ammu like hell. i held him in my arms trying while nariman, naji and hilme fought with the soldiers who continued to try to arrest him and threatened to or did shoot at anyone coming close. nariman claimed he was my brother so they wouldn’t stop me/shoot me. i held him and asked how he was. he said he couldn’t see. he was in ICU for two days, but supposedy “fine”, “stable”, until this afternoon when it was discovered way too late that he wasn’t. he’s had three temporary cardiac arrests today, perhaps internal bleeding, he was too unstable to transport to hadassa hospital in the afternoon, everyone had to wait for him to either die or get stabilized, no one thought he’d die, everyone was scared, but no one thought he would, he was fine this morning, he was fine yesterday, his sister jiji had cooked for everyone thinking he’d get released and everyone would go to their home in ramallah for dinner. one doctor then said he was stable, people were preparing the transfer, the transportation, preparing the papers, shukri would go with him in the ambulance, his brother 3aboud, who just arrived from jordan today, would try to go by car. and then came the news.
the way the hospital dealt with things….. i’ll write about that later. i’m tired. it hurts so much to see strong people, people i love, beautiful people in this much pain AGAIN. i’ll stop here.
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what is happening these days in the rest of palestine is no comparison to the ongoing massacre in gaza, but as a friend said today “we’re in war and the west bank is included” – in the sense that the army is using much more violence here. several people and groups are trying to understand how many people were seriously injured and arrested on this side, it’s hard to know. no comparison to gaza, but we feel it too. but here’s what happened yesterday in nabi saleh:
i’ve not heard so much life ammu being shot before – the video leaves out some parts. when rushdie, brother of nariman, jiji, noora, 3aboud, shukri, shaker and shaher, nephew of Naji among others, uncle of jehad, sami, samia, amany, wa3d, ahed, abu yazan, salam, ahmad, na3’am, medo, hamada, osama, samer, rand, hesham, etc., cousin of bilal, manal, nawwal anan, hamoda, mara7, bissan, nour, etc., father of 3’azzal, was shot, they were shooting life like crazy. rawan tried to continue filming but they kept shooting. everyone kept crouching down. helmi took the camera and got up and was shot at immediately. nariman – who was at home, actually counting her blessing that nothing serious happened on friday – came out running, grabbed the camera and ran down. she only realized it’s her brother when she arrived. then hilme and naji made it down in spite of threats. the soldiers kept pointing guns, shooting and wanting to arrest rushdi. he had a head wound, while lying there, he said he couldn’t see, now we can. we thought the wound was from another bullet, but it was actually from the butt of a rifle, they hit him in the head when he was shot. you can see how much his family had to fight and risk to get him away from the army and to hospital. he’s ok, in the sense, he will survive. he’s in the ICU, the bullet entered his leg (he says he can’t feel his leg) and went into his intestines. his family is at the hospital (again), waiting for news, while everyone is hoping no one will get arrested tonight. interesting how much soldiers tried to hide their faces from the camera …
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